Vigor (Dear Leo)

It’s not the notion that nothing  crumbles beneath your shadow or talus

Tell us nothing is bothering you 

We are believers of beautiful  storms 

And 

The gospel that you’ve reached mountains and topped that with conquests or upsets 

Preyed up ... and heavily eating heavenly 

It’s not the pressure in muscle tones having to tone deaf death threats

Invisible razors hidden in the mane of sharp tongued bluntness

But the indestructible habits

Impregnable spirit 

Mighty roar of contentment 

Look Ma “I did it!”

It’s the incomplete fetish of grown man success 

Stepping on toes right in front of whoever’s getting left 

It’s the purest and only form of love and loneliness .. 

It’s the way that you humble the God in you by silently blessing God with your humbleness 

It’s the vigor of a Lion so faint

Caressing each curve of my tender fragility with the most powerful restraint 

Receiving perceptions of your love language untouched by your lips 

Your falsehood entangled within my deception groping naked truths ...I lie in your strength 

Vernette Harris ©2020

Involved

The sun is failing at hiding

Effortlessly not trying to shine,

Come with wind blowing north of you

Roots attached, shedding all but truth

Trust, there’s some deeply embedded fuckery of sorts 

You know like how I carved the outline of my soul 

Digging my heart, wasting good blood 

Wrapping the beautifully scorned sculpture in non fragility 

Your arms don’t even reach on low shelves 

And high shelves gives too much credit to worthiness

Because I was never taught simple mathematics 

So let’s complicate things 

You know let’s pretend it’s pretty 

And the brutal ugliness of he’s not that into you doesn’t appear so moon like

For the imaginary Kings are awaiting the Crimson liquor drenched we 

The scent of me is too faint 

So i drown myself in poignant self love self loathing bullshit my nose wakes up

Before my eyes 

Still closed, still blind to imagery so clear 

How I can still see the sun shining at its failing attempt to hide.

©️Vernette Harris 2018

Flames

Soulmates always having to be thunderstorms 

invading beats of hearts 

making bad choices 

good choices in the eyes 

beholding some sort of hope of compatibility..

I surrender my indifference 

pity time spent 

figuring out the calmest storm. 

Teetering in doubts collectively united 

storing them in glittery satin ribbon tied boxes.. 

we should enjoy moments like this..

repeating harmonious fears 

neglecting our power  . 

Let’s pray... 

Combustion of silences, 

we face invisible lines and 

tongues tainted in white lies 

blacken our vision 

we stay loving a slow death. 

©️Vernette Harris 2018

Boi

Inside and out

I’ve imagined sunshiny moonlights crossing paths with black cats

Resting assured the we don’t meditate on thoughts .. 

thinking only in sub titles 

and its foreign to me that you only see clear shadows .. 

blackened moments brighten my day.. imagine that. 

In fact .. 

how soon we forget the bliss of ignorant sweet dreams 

and salty wounds hidden in depths of unspoken memories. 

You are not who I pretend to see 
©️Vernette Harris 2018

Expectancy

Dedicated to my sins

Devoted transgressions to divine law

I prosper in peace

Piecing apart unspoken movement

Conflicted on the erect joy dangling

Engulfing my inner shift

Suffering never felt so good

We drift, I seek air amass the watering

Watered down indulgence

Ejecting a pink silhouette

But you promised me crimson type shit

I digress

We stayed true to two

and one thing for certain False Gods blessed

Clearly undressed, 

But to deceive a phantom,

How touching it is to embrace hope

Wishing a motherfucker would just learn to love

©Vernette Harris 2017

I've never

I've never met the gaze of his eyes 

And wonder which empty space interrupts our coupling

I read his mind in between lines of quiet 

Never meeting the moment 

Where his hands shakes credence 

We've arrived at future glances and tongues dance in anticipation. 

I crave him forcefully.. banging the notion that we are present in a never ending past of not knowing what desire really is.. 

I've never met the sudden thrust of his whispers .. shadows speaking the unsung love language commonly known to man..rejected and accepted in my hands

We've come further than karma 

Now I must wait for fate

How soon a melody cried time in time 

Waiting for him to meet my stained skin or laughter

Perusing me in strokes and fondle my inner peace .. I surrender 

Never have I ever wanted what I've never. 

©Vernette Harris 2016

Oh Africa

Oh Africa 

Reaching within in search of my mother 

My entire being has been washed before birth

Tampered and smeared in soil

I dig

I find the roots of my blood

But tainted hands are executed

So I live..

Living with an entire lost continent embedded on my lips

My hair longing for mercy

My eyes rebel against me, the devil has raped them to brighten my skin.. Unrecognizable yet acceptable enough to fondle 

My breasts erect and full of liquors,

My suns and moons get drunk off rage

I taste the Nile in my cries so i remain tearless

My mother can't help me and I beg for her.

So I close my eyes and scream her name...oh Africa!