Vigor (Dear Leo)

It’s not the notion that nothing  crumbles beneath your shadow or talus

Tell us nothing is bothering you 

We are believers of beautiful  storms 

And 

The gospel that you’ve reached mountains and topped that with conquests or upsets 

Preyed up ... and heavily eating heavenly 

It’s not the pressure in muscle tones having to tone deaf death threats

Invisible razors hidden in the mane of sharp tongued bluntness

But the indestructible habits

Impregnable spirit 

Mighty roar of contentment 

Look Ma “I did it!”

It’s the incomplete fetish of grown man success 

Stepping on toes right in front of whoever’s getting left 

It’s the purest and only form of love and loneliness .. 

It’s the way that you humble the God in you by silently blessing God with your humbleness 

It’s the vigor of a Lion so faint

Caressing each curve of my tender fragility with the most powerful restraint 

Receiving perceptions of your love language untouched by your lips 

Your falsehood entangled within my deception groping naked truths ...I lie in your strength 

Vernette Harris ©2020

Involved

The sun is failing at hiding

Effortlessly not trying to shine,

Come with wind blowing north of you

Roots attached, shedding all but truth

Trust, there’s some deeply embedded fuckery of sorts 

You know like how I carved the outline of my soul 

Digging my heart, wasting good blood 

Wrapping the beautifully scorned sculpture in non fragility 

Your arms don’t even reach on low shelves 

And high shelves gives too much credit to worthiness

Because I was never taught simple mathematics 

So let’s complicate things 

You know let’s pretend it’s pretty 

And the brutal ugliness of he’s not that into you doesn’t appear so moon like

For the imaginary Kings are awaiting the Crimson liquor drenched we 

The scent of me is too faint 

So i drown myself in poignant self love self loathing bullshit my nose wakes up

Before my eyes 

Still closed, still blind to imagery so clear 

How I can still see the sun shining at its failing attempt to hide.

©️Vernette Harris 2018

Flames

Soulmates always having to be thunderstorms 

invading beats of hearts 

making bad choices 

good choices in the eyes 

beholding some sort of hope of compatibility..

I surrender my indifference 

pity time spent 

figuring out the calmest storm. 

Teetering in doubts collectively united 

storing them in glittery satin ribbon tied boxes.. 

we should enjoy moments like this..

repeating harmonious fears 

neglecting our power  . 

Let’s pray... 

Combustion of silences, 

we face invisible lines and 

tongues tainted in white lies 

blacken our vision 

we stay loving a slow death. 

©️Vernette Harris 2018

Boi

Inside and out

I’ve imagined sunshiny moonlights crossing paths with black cats

Resting assured the we don’t meditate on thoughts .. 

thinking only in sub titles 

and its foreign to me that you only see clear shadows .. 

blackened moments brighten my day.. imagine that. 

In fact .. 

how soon we forget the bliss of ignorant sweet dreams 

and salty wounds hidden in depths of unspoken memories. 

You are not who I pretend to see 
©️Vernette Harris 2018

Expectancy

Dedicated to my sins

Devoted transgressions to divine law

I prosper in peace

Piecing apart unspoken movement

Conflicted on the erect joy dangling

Engulfing my inner shift

Suffering never felt so good

We drift, I seek air amass the watering

Watered down indulgence

Ejecting a pink silhouette

But you promised me crimson type shit

I digress

We stayed true to two

and one thing for certain False Gods blessed

Clearly undressed, 

But to deceive a phantom,

How touching it is to embrace hope

Wishing a motherfucker would just learn to love

©Vernette Harris 2017

I've never

I've never met the gaze of his eyes 

And wonder which empty space interrupts our coupling

I read his mind in between lines of quiet 

Never meeting the moment 

Where his hands shakes credence 

We've arrived at future glances and tongues dance in anticipation. 

I crave him forcefully.. banging the notion that we are present in a never ending past of not knowing what desire really is.. 

I've never met the sudden thrust of his whispers .. shadows speaking the unsung love language commonly known to man..rejected and accepted in my hands

We've come further than karma 

Now I must wait for fate

How soon a melody cried time in time 

Waiting for him to meet my stained skin or laughter

Perusing me in strokes and fondle my inner peace .. I surrender 

Never have I ever wanted what I've never. 

©Vernette Harris 2016

Oh Africa

Oh Africa 

Reaching within in search of my mother 

My entire being has been washed before birth

Tampered and smeared in soil

I dig

I find the roots of my blood

But tainted hands are executed

So I live..

Living with an entire lost continent embedded on my lips

My hair longing for mercy

My eyes rebel against me, the devil has raped them to brighten my skin.. Unrecognizable yet acceptable enough to fondle 

My breasts erect and full of liquors,

My suns and moons get drunk off rage

I taste the Nile in my cries so i remain tearless

My mother can't help me and I beg for her.

So I close my eyes and scream her name...oh Africa!

SERENDIPITY

And like the seasons 

To be predictably unpredictable

We've fallen into each other's sunshine

We've melted into each others cool

Hovering in doubt.. We bend

Fallaciously straightening our curves

The authenticity in our faults

Our brokenness mends... How cruel to be so loving

Time teaches us to cry

Screams silent soliloquies in ardor

And we blow each other in spence

Unfulfilled and so full of the obvious 

We ignore soulfully 

Thoroughly amazing 

Our moments are clear at midnight 

Unclear.. Betwixt twilight and dawn

Unawakened by fear.. 

We share space interrupted 

Love has conquered us

Bullied its way toward freedom

Leaving our minds blurry and grey 

Carelessly ignoring its silhouette 

Should we ever... 

©Vernette Harris 2014

Trouble sleeping

Rocks so solid

Arise like certitude 

We meld

Complete and...

Uninterrupted truths and such

How can I be so translucent?

My skin so sticky

Like Braille upon your membrane

How could you understand where I'm coming from?

We be like in reverse

Running from palpitating inner thoughts. 

No love lost, I suppose 

And love so stubborn 

It stains crimson matter 

Tracing the roots of

My sins to the core of my soul..

I loosen your flow

Boldly tilting the balance that don't exist 

In other words, I'm tripping

Leaning to side of indifference

Im stretched so deep

The flood that ensues

Troublesome. 

Soul stirring 

My Nile has erupted. 

I-firmative

Breath....ing

Outside the conception of I never had

Sensations and typos of love

Make it go lustfully and sun settings

I belong

Touching each sleepless thought

Heartache never felt so alive

Waking up to hollow dreams

Walking silently into---passion

Passionately

I belong 

The song begins to play our end

Settled in your speechless tongue

Layered beneath broken promises

Hopeless in shattered hopes

Regrets bloom so lovely 

I belong 

 

Rebel destiny and grasp wandering air

Trust my graceful silhouette 

I lie loosely into the crevices of your certain untruths 

Belonging to you.me.we

Moving mountain tops and 

Rising rivers we cease to-

Afraid to attach a memory 

To nothing more than 

Distant whispers 

We be longing 

Carefully un-placing fingerprints

Intentionally unloving you

Defying sweet things and such 

Into city lights and the moon lit country side

I belong 

Thinking of two 2 trains

At speeds of harmonious desire

Towards brooks- lingering 

I reach waves and oceans 

Drowning 

At the thought

Of 

Us belonging 

Simply 

©Vernette Harris 2014

 

I believe life is art. How I grow into you is art. The way I see you is an art form. My gaze is artistically and colorfully composed onto a blank canvas. The way I look at you, the way I walk with you, the way I laugh with you, the way I embrace you, the way I love you, the way I lay with you is creatively and purposefully made into a moment. 

Darling, you have to believe that I am not your little accident.... You did not just come upon me. - Vee

Waiting it is

Is it my fault
There is a extended space and time
Lengthened by rhyme
In which my heart yearns your awakened shadow
Gripping for soothing intentions
That ache i long for

Is it my fault
I recite the hymns
Said to be floating adjacent to life
Interconnecting a single tear to a harsh cry
I die in song
And resemble the rebirthed soul

Is it my fault that i love unconditionally
And just like the flower
Expanded and emptied
Completely parched in all its splendor
Watered carelessly
Soaked in irrelevancy

Waiting

To be plucked
Inhaled
And adored

©Vernette Harris 

My Heart Resides in Brooklyn

I step in a crooked stone fashion, lying in linear direction...kissing gravity atomically, beyond my dimensions grabbing your affection. Fingers tip toeing vertically, hipster, I gyrate sensually to split screen images of head shots, nursing shots awaiting your liquors I suppose. 

© 2014 VernetteHarris

Unforgotten

We forgot about love…

And simmered between the currents lust offered

The moments in between that battle of falling,

Deeply, momentarily became a faint whisper.

How often does autumn remind us to forget stillness?

And how often does the sun remember the lonely shade?

The freedom of becoming nothing more than what is

What was the end is beginning to forget love

Stirring the souls before the outcome of promises

We never mentioned that hands grasped in togetherness

Completely crumbles inside the ache of longing

We forget about love to just be…he, me …we

Passionately succumbing to the notion of fearlessly forgetting

Because love wants to take the freedom

And run

Stealing heart beats and freeing tear drops

When love is to be remembered and not forgotten

With us

 

Mutual Understanding

There's beauty 

in an imperfect unknown

Where your beginning 

ends in my imagination 

so flawed,

We were unbroken in anticipation 

Where

The conception of lust 

understood

that love never happens at all, 

we submerged

Simply 

My silhouette 

was understood by your touch 

so deep it plummeted

into a violent passion

Your tongue 

understood the ebb and flow 

of my Niagara Falls 

and the rapture of my inner Nile...

you were consumed in my core

understanding my depth

Begging for submission

Fighting emotional warfare,
demanding my strength
to diminish inside your strokes, 

I surrendered

Beating the notion 

that you can't reach 

my heartless soul 

and 

caress that ache of longing, 

You succeeded

Parting lips 

And

Allowing breaths 

to lie into each others words

Kissing the untruths 

Imploding against exploding secrets,
we came deeply into our understanding
of betrayal

Forgiving each other passionately

Igniting thoughts 

that will fondle memories 

so recklessly, again

And again

We collapsed 

into the heat of the moment 

And understood 

nothing 

about the flame we just created.

Dwell

I dwell in what I imagine your scent to be

Lingering the moments of air

Out and in the realm of my source

Envision the hues of you

Mahogany  like silhouette

Dripping the inner of my emotions

I dwell in what I imagine your soul to be

Craving the fated memories

And moons elude us

Betwixt the suns breath 

Beneath the willows weep

Alluring whispers are kept 

And I seek

What I imagine

Anticipation

Anticipation

The fragrance of  you  my soul seeks

And heart beats with

Deep sighs til sun takes the moon

Rise and 

My eyes speak in past tense 

Clearly unsure

But

Unspoken soliloquies erect in my 

Position

I await you

My inner thighs dance to the bump of your rhythm

And

I shift in my patience

Anticipation has taken over me

Lately

Daydreaming

Chasing the midnight silence By the glow of the distressed stars The motion of my somber dreams And the breeze of your nearness I graze the spirit of your pitted silhouette Wondering Which blink of your excavated eye, Will I Expire into the gravity of your longing? I do not breathe the air hoping for breath Nor Circulate my thoughts hoping for certainty Within the grasp of our honey suckle vine Dry bleeding the fruits bruised Raping the moments intended And abusing the conception of love Daydreaming …simply daydreaming -Vernette Harris 2012

The Promise

Your promise was "No promises" And My expectation To expect nothing from it all Falling into a black hole No promises has sought me Finding The air is deep, you speak And I suffocate In the swallowing Truly in sadness Running sideways, dazed Paths be in blueness And blackness clarifies That happiness is colorful Like the purples you promised me Caution elopes the breeze And The quick step has suffered And deceased We meet Far beyond Arriving at no promise Expecting to be loved -Vernette Harris

My Moon, His Sky

He is a hard one to love



Say things in multiple silences


And I forgive his inexperience


Multiplying in a cataclysmic


Carefree


Combustion






I can’t ponder his frailty


Rise up my legs


Touching thighs


And be blessed


…thank me later






Oh I welcome your blindness


Freedom deliverance in an agonizing moan


Visualizing complex simplicity


Is unheard of






How insecure be the throne of you


Like do I really walk amongst his tears?


Throw away my own brightness


Stretch my arms to his sky






I wither at the moment he wrestles me


Do I dare leave me there ebbing?


The reason why our world craves an opening


Tide


So it seems






So ever clear, the blue hue is not happy tears


I’ve even shattered the moon in half


Split the screen in my dreams


And nothing would appear






Filter


His fear


A hard one


To love


He is…




©Vernette Harris 2011